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Rediscovering My True Higher Self


*UPDATE November 27, 2019* 

Since the creation of this video a more in depth video has been created by my partner, Theresa Talea, explaining the higher self phenomena. Please click the image below to watch her important video:
In this video, I talk about my experience in discovering my true higher self outside of a religious or New Age conception. Within the popular spiritual and New Age ideologies, a higher self can often be any number of external entities that are claiming this title.  I discuss how I experienced this disorienting belief, then how I moved away from it all together to truly rediscover the full energy I always felt within myself.  This rediscovery of my own full energy is talked about and how this  began to introduce me to the deeply fulfilling eternal energy flow within my own inner layers.

I speak also of the tangible energy of Love that is accessible deep within as the foundation to our very consciousness.  I sense that while Love extends to connect and know all aspects of creation to various degrees of resonance, it's energy feels truly separate from distortion and in connecting with this simple energy within us it can provide a gauge towards actualizing our own inner alignment and intgeration with our whole identity as our true higher self. 

I experienced in the Law of One based idea of love that it is often made out to be "unconditional" to the point of becoming accepting of distorted applications of energy as if distortions are somehow part of and included in Love's eternal energy flow.  I feel this flawed New Age and popular spiritual concept of love often causes more separation and fragmentation within as one may accept various gradients of semi-phantom to phantom energy as normal.

Thank you for watching

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  1. AnonymousMarch 7, 2024 at 11:35 PM

    The information in Voyager I and II is ABSOLUTELYTHE TRUTH! ....I have been a seeker my whole life and studied, investigated it ALL! SO many manmade "religions" were distorted and misinterpreted from the ancient texts...as was the bible. BUT I CAN TELL YOU THIS: ASHAYANA DEANE IS PRESENTING INFORMATION THAT WAS INTENTIONALLY HIDDEN FROM HUMANITY! And now being revealed for those that have eyes to see and ears to hear!

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    1. Alex BalistreyaAugust 20, 2024 at 3:06 PM

      Hello,

      Ashayana’s Voyager’s books provide very particular pre-histories which are relevant to her preferred groups agendas and reasons for contacting humans. I explain more of this context throughout the different articles on this website, and I delve deeper into their specific agendas in my most recent article A Closer Look at the Andromeda Deception: Unveiling Its Agenda.

      I invite readers to explore more nuanced and comprehensive understanding and influences that shape much of Ashayana’s work and associations. I have come to feel it is important to remember that our understanding and growth are not confined to what has been revealed by her or through her MCEO and GA associates.

      Thanks for your considerations and personal thoughts,
      Alex Balistreya

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